starting over, a new year a new me

so i started this blog last year. but then i didnt continue with my weight loss. but now, now its time. come jan 1st I will start on my journey. I am going to try hard to lose the excess weight. It wont be easy, but I’m ready. I’m ready to give it my best shot.

I have a target. Right now I weight 230 pounds, thats 16 stone. I’d like to get down to 150 pounds, so thats 80 pounds i need to lose.

I hope I can do it. I plan on starting january 1st. I will document my weight loss journey here on this blog.

Please follow me if you’d like to read about it.


Weigh in!

today I had a weigh in. it was unplanned. my nutritionist was at work, but I wasnt supposed to have an apt with her. i was seeing my cpn and texted her to ask if she was free, i really wanted to have a weigh in to see if i had lost anything.

she texted back saying she was free for a couple minutes and said she’d come get me in about 20 minutes. that suited me as it gave me time to finish up with my cpn.

when we got to her office we chatted for a while first. i told her i was using my fitness pal. she seemed to think that would be a good thing and told me if it was helping me to keep going with using it.

we talked about goals for the week. i told her i hadnt exercised much this past week, not at all hardly. and i havent been drinking water either. she told me to try to start to do these things this week and to also use lecothin granuals.

then the dreaded moment arrived. she got out the scales. i stood on it.

101 kg, 223 pounds. oh no. same weight, again. no weight loss this week. this is the third week, how frustrating.

i was really disappointed with myself. She told me not to worry. that it could be due to constipation, or lack of exercise, or no water intake, etc. try harder for next week was all she said.

and i’d been sooo good this week!

I’d had no chocolate, no crisps, no biscuits, no sweet things at all. I’d eaten plenty of fruit and veg, I’d had 3 healthy meals a day and hardly any snacks. And still I wasnt down.

I guess allI can do is try again next week.

Have you ever been stuck at a certain weight for more than a week? What did you do about it?

My fitness pal

I’ve decided to start using my fitness pal to track my calories, exercise, water intake, and overall weight loss.

I like what I’ve seen of it so far. I inputted all my info and it told me I had 1500 calories to use up for the day. When I added up all of my foods I have eaten today it only came to 1150 calories. So I am well under my goal for today.

The ap said if I keep eating the way I ate today, I can lose 8 pounds by the end of october. I can go from 222 to 213 in 5 weeks. That sounds like a very achievable target to aim for.

I think logging my progress will be good for me. It will keep me very motivated which is just what I need as I tend to lack motivation when it comes to drinking water and exercising.

Heres to hoping this will work for me.

Have you used this ap? If so did it help you?

Havent updated this blog in a while, going to do it now

ok so i have this blog and havent updated it. but now that i’ve decided to keep my weight loss journey separate from the rest of my life on my other blog which is private, I will make updates to this one more often.

Ok for newbys. I’m a 37 year old woman from ireland. I am blind, have been blind since birth, I also struggle with mental health issues. These include eating issues. Food and weight have always been a struggle for me.

I see a nutritionist, she is also a psychiatric nurse. We work on healthy eating, exercise, and weight loss. Each week we set goals and I try to stick to them. Some weeks I succeed, others not so much. But its all part of the journey right?

I havent had a weigh in this past week. This is because I am at respite and so could not make it to my appointment. I will have my weigh in next week as per usual. I am hopeful I’ll have lost some weight. I’ve been working hard this week on eating healthily and exercising.

I currently weigh 222 pounds, or 15 stone 12 pounds.

I dont have a target weight that I need to reach, we’re just taking it very slowly.

Slow and steady wins the race!

If you’d also like to follow my private blog, you can request access by visiting

I blog on my private blog about my psychotherapy process, living with ptsd and dissociative identity disorder, being a child abuse survivor, and other day to day life events that come up.

Thanks for reading.

Are you on a weight loss journey? How are you finding it?

carol anne

working out didnt go so good :-(

i tried to get on the treadmill for 20 minutes this afternoon. it didnt go so good. my back was really sore. my lower back. just above my bottom area you know the back bone that is there? well i think somethings pulled or something because it hurts like a bitch. so i could only manage 5 minutes. but later this evening i’ll try again. even if i can do 5 more minutes, i’ll be happy. build it up slowly. i was disappointed though. at least i’ll be eating a healthy stir fry for dinner, and i’ll put lecothan granuals into it.

morning Breakfast food log

I know I said I’d start off on the right foot today. And I did for the most part. I was craving hash brouns though so I ended up getting my pa kristen to cook some for me. And now that I’ve had my fix I’m on the health kick and not gonna eat any more bad foods.

so this morning I ate

1 banana
2 peaches
four hash browns
2 slices of white bread

Once my loaf of white bread is gone, I’ll change to wheat bread.
I’m not sure how many calories I had, need to download my fitness pal ap to try and figure that one out.
I’m relatively happy though with this mornings results.

First blog post welcome to me and my weight loss journey!

Hello everyone. Welcome to my new blog focusing on losing weight.

I have battled with weight my entire life. at 37, I am now at my heaviest, I have gone a little over 200 pounds, for my UK readers, I am 16 stone, right now I am going to weigh myself, and will let everyone know how much I weigh. ok, here goes, I will step on the scales, I am so nervous becauseI know I’ve been doing bad for weeks now.

drumroll maybe 🙂 ok…

I am in shock. I weigh 228 pounds, that’s 16.29 stone, or 103.3 kg.


Something needs to change and now! Quick! I am so unhappy with how I look.


The good news is I have a treadmill at home. So now to my goals


log all of my food in a food diary

exercise for 30 minutes per day

drink at least 2 litres of water a day

eat plenty of fruit and vegetables

Try to do some mindful breathing and meditation

Choose foods that are lower in fat and more of a healthy choice

try to cut out tea and coffee, this one is hard, but maybe I can cut down on them instead of cutting them entirely out.

Stop eating candy and sugary foods, like cookies, and cake.

try to improve my sleep so my energy levels go up during the day.


I have been going to a nutritionist. I stopped going to her in march. I think its time I picked that back up again.  I’ll call her tomorrow and make an appointment to see her.


the new me starts from tonight. My goal is to lose 2 pound a week, any more will be a bonus.


Would love it if all of you would follow and give me encouragement. I’ll be posting stats and recipes, and journal entries about my workouts etc.

Hoping to meet like minded people here who are on a similar journey.


Carol anne